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Jan. 30th, 2020 10:27 pmI keep meaning to post, but being busy and tired. On Tuesday, we heard from Kansas and Muffinhead, who had just arrived in Ann Arbor for Muffinhead's audition with the U of Michigan School of Music. Kansas suggested they could drive over to see the Sparrowhawk on Wednesday. It's not as far as it is from here--only 30/45 minutes. I'd been planning to go and visit him myself today, but quickly changed my plans to go yesterday to coincide with them. Tuesday night I was running around the house getting things ready for the trip--things like doing some laundry so I could take the Sparrowhawk a clean extra pair of flannel lounge pants, and baking chocolate chip cookies to take along. Part of the evening went to seeing Little Women with a friend from church who'd already asked me to go with her.
Wednesday morning, I had a dentist's appointment to have a filling replaced. My dentist is very good, but I still have a lot of dread about dentists. I feel as if I used to be a lot tougher than I am now. Something about accompanying my parents in their dying has taken some of the starch out of me. I feel so keenly how we are all small and easily broken, and will all too soon return to dust. I just don't feel very tough any more when people come to do scary things to my poor body, even if I know there's nothing really harmful about it and it will ultimately benefit me. I worry that I will just burst into tears and flee! But that hasn't happened yet. My filling is fine, and I piled everything into the car, filled the tank with gas, and took off with half my face still numb, occasionally checking the mirror to be sure I wasn't drooling. I'm actually very very grateful that I can have good dental care, because I know there are so many people who would love to get their teeth fixed and can't.
l was also very grateful that traffic was light and the trip went well. I arrived shortly after Kansas and Muffinhead, and was so glad to see them! I don't know how Muffinhead went from a darling baby to a wonderful young man so fast, but somehow he did that. What a joy! We visited for a couple of hours, and he talked about his hopes for the the audition, his interest in jazz, and so many other things. The three of us were all starving, and eventually we went out in search of food. We found a great noodle shop just down the road and enjoyed delicious soup and dumplings. I took back half of my portion for the Sparrowhawk, and it was still too much for him to eat. Kansas and Muffinhead went back to their Air B&B in Ann Arbor. The audition was today, and I have been thinking about Muffinhead all day and hoping all went well for him. I hung out with the Sparrowhawk for awhile longer, and then drove to a hotel down the road where I stay in lonely splendor. Just as I arrived, an old friend called me with various news items, and I had no more energy after that!
Today I got to spend all day with the Sparrowhawk, observing the daily routine with interest and cheering up his solitude. I had given some of the cookies to Muffinhead for snacks, and the Sparrowhawk wanted to put some out where the staff could share them. They very kindly thanked me for the treats. One of them said she could taste the love in them, which made me feel good! Tomorrow morning I'll go back and spend the morning with him, hopefully have lunch with him, and then drive home. I hate to leave but I hope he's invigorated to make it through the week, and then I'll come back and take him home.
Wednesday morning, I had a dentist's appointment to have a filling replaced. My dentist is very good, but I still have a lot of dread about dentists. I feel as if I used to be a lot tougher than I am now. Something about accompanying my parents in their dying has taken some of the starch out of me. I feel so keenly how we are all small and easily broken, and will all too soon return to dust. I just don't feel very tough any more when people come to do scary things to my poor body, even if I know there's nothing really harmful about it and it will ultimately benefit me. I worry that I will just burst into tears and flee! But that hasn't happened yet. My filling is fine, and I piled everything into the car, filled the tank with gas, and took off with half my face still numb, occasionally checking the mirror to be sure I wasn't drooling. I'm actually very very grateful that I can have good dental care, because I know there are so many people who would love to get their teeth fixed and can't.
l was also very grateful that traffic was light and the trip went well. I arrived shortly after Kansas and Muffinhead, and was so glad to see them! I don't know how Muffinhead went from a darling baby to a wonderful young man so fast, but somehow he did that. What a joy! We visited for a couple of hours, and he talked about his hopes for the the audition, his interest in jazz, and so many other things. The three of us were all starving, and eventually we went out in search of food. We found a great noodle shop just down the road and enjoyed delicious soup and dumplings. I took back half of my portion for the Sparrowhawk, and it was still too much for him to eat. Kansas and Muffinhead went back to their Air B&B in Ann Arbor. The audition was today, and I have been thinking about Muffinhead all day and hoping all went well for him. I hung out with the Sparrowhawk for awhile longer, and then drove to a hotel down the road where I stay in lonely splendor. Just as I arrived, an old friend called me with various news items, and I had no more energy after that!
Today I got to spend all day with the Sparrowhawk, observing the daily routine with interest and cheering up his solitude. I had given some of the cookies to Muffinhead for snacks, and the Sparrowhawk wanted to put some out where the staff could share them. They very kindly thanked me for the treats. One of them said she could taste the love in them, which made me feel good! Tomorrow morning I'll go back and spend the morning with him, hopefully have lunch with him, and then drive home. I hate to leave but I hope he's invigorated to make it through the week, and then I'll come back and take him home.
