Rook of Trill

[ismo]

This would have been my mother's 94th birthday. I woke up in the middle of the night after a bad dream of a standard type: I'm part of a team that is working to stop bad people from harming others. We succeeded in tracking them down eventually, but not until they had already killed again. I felt that I had failed and woke up in a panic. I went downstairs for a couple of hours. Shortly before dawn, the Sparrowhawk joined me, and once it started to get light, we went back to bed. I slept most of the morning away. Then we walked over to our polling place and voted. On the way back, I stopped in the garden store and bought a bunch of yellow and red tulips and put them in a white pitcher, in memory of my mother.

This is a terrible time for preventive measures against Covid-19. It's just starting to be spring, and everyone is dying to be out and about. It's a tough time to stay inside and hibernate some more, instead. And yet, I feel less and less inclined to go out and be in groups. It's hard to say if this is a sensible precaution, or my hermit's madness taking over. Maybe the two have meshed! A beautiful full moon is rising, as we move into the phase of Trill. That's funny because it's apparently going to snow again tomorrow. Hopefully not much.

Comments

self quarantine?

[siriosa]

i've been training my whole life for this.

i stand with you in your grief. you were a good daughter. you did what you could, and then you did a little bit more than you could.

rest now. heal.

Re: self quarantine?

[ismo]

Thank you--I know it's true. I just need to cut myself some slack. And I, too, am already a black belt in the art of hermiting! I have enough raw material for years of happy social distancing. Maybe I can finally shrink the TBR stack.

Re: self quarantine?

[siriosa]

my mental jiu-jitsu for cutting myself slack is to ask what i'd say in this situation to somebody i liked.

my tbr pile will never shrink, bc ao3.

[oracne]

Going outside alone is okay, if you don't lick any surfaces or sick people, right?

[ismo]

Yes, I think I'm pretty safe on my little walks!