Starfish of Bloom
May. 22nd, 2025 09:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ismoI'm about ready to post no more until I can post about something actually happening, or me actually doing something. Such ennui. In The Lathe of Heaven, Le Guin refers to "the French diseases of the soul," which she lists as pique, umbrage, and ennui. IIRC. I thought this was so clever when I first read it at a young age. Now I'm not sure. Anyway, I am more inclined to have the German soul woes, which are more like large dense pancakes than crepes. Angst, Sehnsucht, and Weltschmerz, perhaps. A stack! Mit Schlag! I can't include Schadenfreude as a form of distress, because I rather enjoy it, thought I know it is wrong of me.
I did go for a walk today. I was desperate to make some gesture in the direction of recovery. I enjoyed it, until I encountered jovial workmen and had to shorten my path to retreat from a jovial encounter. It wasn't raining, so I hoped I might sit in the back yard, but by the time I got home, it had clouded over and was too windy. It's taking a lot of self-restraint not to test myself until tomorrow. That is really the earliest that it would make any sense.
The Sparrowhawk made some more sausage and sauerkraut. Having encountered Bavarian style sauerkraut, he is now trying to find the best kind. Scientifically! I tried to make potato salad, but it remains incomplete, containing only potatoes, mayonnaise, and pickles, because the celery was shockingly nasty. We'll have to make the store give us our money back. I actually don't mind just boiled potatoes with mayo and pickles. It's the German in me, I suppose. It gives me Weltschmerz and Bauchweh, but also love of taters. Our friend who, while undergoing chemo for lymphoma, was discovered to have partial blockage of an artery and had to have two stents installed, and then got a kidney infection, is responding to antibiotics and will be allowed to go home tomorrow, so that's good news. I think Madame tried to call me, but when I answered, there were just some irate mutterings and what I think was the sound of a phone falling to the floor. I left her a message, but she has not replied. The Sparrowhawk and I worked together to find some nice wooden kitchen utensils and send them to Angelbaby for his birthday, and this gives me some satisfaction.
I did go for a walk today. I was desperate to make some gesture in the direction of recovery. I enjoyed it, until I encountered jovial workmen and had to shorten my path to retreat from a jovial encounter. It wasn't raining, so I hoped I might sit in the back yard, but by the time I got home, it had clouded over and was too windy. It's taking a lot of self-restraint not to test myself until tomorrow. That is really the earliest that it would make any sense.
The Sparrowhawk made some more sausage and sauerkraut. Having encountered Bavarian style sauerkraut, he is now trying to find the best kind. Scientifically! I tried to make potato salad, but it remains incomplete, containing only potatoes, mayonnaise, and pickles, because the celery was shockingly nasty. We'll have to make the store give us our money back. I actually don't mind just boiled potatoes with mayo and pickles. It's the German in me, I suppose. It gives me Weltschmerz and Bauchweh, but also love of taters. Our friend who, while undergoing chemo for lymphoma, was discovered to have partial blockage of an artery and had to have two stents installed, and then got a kidney infection, is responding to antibiotics and will be allowed to go home tomorrow, so that's good news. I think Madame tried to call me, but when I answered, there were just some irate mutterings and what I think was the sound of a phone falling to the floor. I left her a message, but she has not replied. The Sparrowhawk and I worked together to find some nice wooden kitchen utensils and send them to Angelbaby for his birthday, and this gives me some satisfaction.
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Date: 2025-05-23 12:31 pm (UTC)Do you have Apple TV? The Murderbot series has begun. I am enjoying it. I am giving them my money while it's on to support Martha Wells.
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Date: 2025-05-24 02:29 am (UTC)