Trillium of Bliss
May. 15th, 2018 09:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ismoI woke up this morning from a dream where I was back in a Kansas that never was quite that way, and I'd been talking to a man about a park that doesn't exist in the real KS. The park was preserved lands where Native Americans used to live. I was talking to a man about it, trying to describe what it was like. I fumbled for the right words. "It was as if you reached your hand out, into the dream, and another hand met yours." While talking, I had gone out on a sandstone ledge above the Wakarusa. I had my back to the cliff and was balanced precariously above a precipice. "Oh my god," I shouted. "I remember this. I've been here before. My body knows this place. But I have no idea how to get back!" Then I woke up, and the rest of the day was pretty much more of the same.
I am not in a good mood. The nurse from the doctor's office never called me back. This morning, I called the office again. This time I got a different receptionist, who made an appointment with a different doctor from the clinic, who had office hours tomorrow and will see Mother at 11. Apparently, they have recently opened a new clinic that's about half as far from my mother's place, and the appointment is there. I do not want to drive down there again tomorrow, but the Duchess cannot go then--she has to drive her husband to a medical procedure--so I will. I feel kind of stupid for doing this when I don't have to--I mean, what difference is a day going to make, after all? But I just want her to start treatment ASAP. I'm not looking forward to doing that drive again so soon. I had several other phone calls today, too, including the fact that I called my mother about six times in an hour and a half to give her the change of plan before she finally picked up. I'm beginning to feel as if I'm spending my life on the phone. I guess the bright side of that is that at least the phone was working.
We went out this morning and bought some garden seeds that were 40% off. We also bought a lilac that was 20% off. They had all kinds, but I decided to get the old fashioned Syringa vulgaris, the one that grows on abandoned farms and back roads all over the midwest. It's not fancy but it's like an old friend. I didn't get to do any planting today, and I won't do any tomorrow, but maybe on Thursday we can put something in the ground.
I am not in a good mood. The nurse from the doctor's office never called me back. This morning, I called the office again. This time I got a different receptionist, who made an appointment with a different doctor from the clinic, who had office hours tomorrow and will see Mother at 11. Apparently, they have recently opened a new clinic that's about half as far from my mother's place, and the appointment is there. I do not want to drive down there again tomorrow, but the Duchess cannot go then--she has to drive her husband to a medical procedure--so I will. I feel kind of stupid for doing this when I don't have to--I mean, what difference is a day going to make, after all? But I just want her to start treatment ASAP. I'm not looking forward to doing that drive again so soon. I had several other phone calls today, too, including the fact that I called my mother about six times in an hour and a half to give her the change of plan before she finally picked up. I'm beginning to feel as if I'm spending my life on the phone. I guess the bright side of that is that at least the phone was working.
We went out this morning and bought some garden seeds that were 40% off. We also bought a lilac that was 20% off. They had all kinds, but I decided to get the old fashioned Syringa vulgaris, the one that grows on abandoned farms and back roads all over the midwest. It's not fancy but it's like an old friend. I didn't get to do any planting today, and I won't do any tomorrow, but maybe on Thursday we can put something in the ground.
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Date: 2018-05-16 12:52 pm (UTC)